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Things won't be right until you're back.
This feeling that I'm feeling.

yesterday we dressed up
went to the sushi place where we had our very first date.
i clearly remember what we talked about that day,
snapple caps, a van filled up with books
and being a little shy and nervous
the color shirt he was wearing
how sweet and charming
pretty much the start of our relationship
That was a year and 6 months ago.
It was nice going there again for our date
memories are nice.


-e

I haven't been posting a lot lately.
And I'm sorry for that.
I'm going through a phase of regrowth in myself.
Evelyn is doing an amazing job at being extremely supportive of my efforts.
Without a heart a human is a drone. Like a wasp, ant, or bee.
Blood is the only thing that is most important in this world.
I pump mine over and over and over.
Hoping that you give reason to my life.

Hello! Our posting has been slow. In all honesty we just don't know what to write and share. We don't do too much or have ton of adventures. We sit at home, drink wine, listen to music or have a TV show marathon. Currently it's The Office, such a hilarious show that I am glad we are rewatching together. Last weekend I did go to the Central Valley with him, that's his home and we went because it was his dad's birthday. I am glad I went because I had a good time over there in 90+ degree weather... haha but we stayed mostly indoors watching all 3 Matrix movies with the dad and sis. But other than that , life has been mostly working and finding a new place to live in the city. I will be soon updating or making a new blog for my art. I need to get started on working on that in order to find a job in the art field like I want. My boyfriend right now is back at the valley again, and I do miss him a lot at the moment. It's quite lonely today on my day off but I'll be back at work the rest if the week. I just do hope he comes back soon. Here's some Instagram photos to update you more of what has been going on with us lately ;)

 Picnic/ Josh's birthday on July 4th at Dolores Park

 Giving up at breaking his birthday pinata

 We hiked up Bernal Heights to get ready to view some fireworks

 We love breakfast at Red Cafe or Sunrise Restaurant

 A day off from work and we head to the park on a nice warm day

 This guy...I love him so :)

 Ghosts in Shells perform at Uptown club last week!

Band photo! (left to right): Evan, Daniel, Josh and Fernando

You

In the slow quicksand of time
I try to expand my mind
Try to retract my guide

I feel your lips so limp
Your tips I keep
The chips I bit

The robotic silhouette
Is all the girl I get
So I'm wondering
Why have you all of this somber bringings

Don't you know I'm crazy?
Don't you see I'm beatened down 'til I'm straightened?

I feel the beat
I feel the heat
I'm sick
Regret
I'm trying to see reason
You don't seem to be leadin'

Show me the path
All I want is mass

See what I see
Love is love
The only laguage
Is that we make of

Inspiration and DIY Ideas I Found and Love #1

I love this candle holder with sticks/twigs all around. Something I definitely want to make when I get the chance.  (  via  fossil.life.style  )

A dresser painted and designed anyway you want  :) 

(  via I Can't Stop Crafting  )

This neat idea of keeping your art work space organized and fun :D

(  via Rebecca's Soap Deli News )

A plant in an old light bulb as a vase! 

(  via College Life DIY  )

 Making an owl next time i finish a roll of toilet paper ;)

(  via El hada de papel  )

 Creating your very own Lily backdrop yourself might take hours but it beats buying one for $1800!!

(  via  DIY or Don't  )

  

Owls, owls, owls. These paper owls are so cute. I want one.. 

(  via  Craft and Creativity  )

love, 

e

Ghosts in Shells Show 2

 Pictures of Fernando's latest show with his band/friends early this month. They had another successful show at Dolores Park Cafe again. I am so proud of Fernando too for accomplishing a lot and doing what he loves. He's going to go far and I'm right at his side supporting him as much as I can. I got to read some of my poetry at this show along with our good friend Josh. It was pretty exciting but of course there's always those nerves that get you right before you step up in front of an audience. Anyways, can't wait for their next show , below is a video of one of Ghosts in Shells single, Machines.And a bonus short video of my love rapping :) Enjoy!

-e

Our trip to the Water Park

Last Monday we took the day off for some fun and relaxation at the Raging waters water park in San Jose. I have been wanting to go for years to a water park again and it finally happened and  I had so much fun with Fernando. We got on rides that were a lot of fun and thrilling, many of them we went on several times, we got sun burned very very bad because we weren't smart enough to buy sunscreen but we learned our lesson, now that we went through a painful sunburn and peeling skin...it was horrible. Anyways, but it was all worth it and especially spending this happy day with my love who willingly took the day off and came along with me :) It meant a lot and I'm so thankful to have him as my boyfriend. We're planning on having another water park trip soon again but in a different location. ;)

-e

Art Spring Show

Our trip to my school's Art Spring Show last weekend. We saw so much talent. Really inspiring

-e

Morning

Pulsating heart beats
Euphoric elevation
Passion stays with me

Because we love Safeway!

We have so many memories going to this specific grocery store, Safeway, a year ago when we were just starting to hang out and getting to know each other. It was a must to go back and revisit during our 1 year anniversary. :)

-e

Happy 1 year anniversary to.... Us!

Even though it was actually yesterday, I am still wanting to blog about our wonderful 1 yr anniversary today because yesterday there was just no time. I am shocked to see how fast this whole year went by to us with everything we have done and been through and seen and all the memories we've made. Its amazing and astounding and incredible that our love has been strong no matter what. Yes, there were bad times and there  were good times and I just believe everything we have gone through together has helped our love become stronger and stronger and to be there for each other for support and encouragement. I love you so much and couldn't be happier and I will never forget the first time we met, our first date together and when we were just beginning to know each other and  I am glad you are a big part of my life now.

Yesterday we took the time to rent out a mini cooper and drive over to where we first start hanging out a lot, to the place we would go and grab a bite to eat late at night, to the grocery store we would walk to at 1am with my ukulele for donuts and other stuff , and to many other places we been throughout the city. I seriously was very happy, going back to these locations brought back that nostalgic feeling, and everything was sentimental because there is a story behind every one of these places we been to together. Yesterday was such a happy day for both us, spending our evening together seriously was the best gift of all. 

(1st photo) my gift from fernando, my new green headphones  :D along with the game i been wanting since Deccember, Skyrim ;) im such a nerd

(2nd photo) our mini cooper for the day =]

more photos to be shared

love,
-e

My AAU Graduation

Venice Beach!

Fernando here at Venice Beach when we had a roadtrip to LA to visit my parents back in March. I love this place, its always so entertaining, Fernando seemed to like it as well, he seems to fit well in SoCal ;)

Graduation!

I graduated!! Friday was the big day! Mom and Dad flew in from L.A. my boyfriend and friends went and it was just a good and exciting proud day :) I am so thankful and happy I made it and pictures will be shared soon as soon as my scanner gets fixed ;)

-e

Beaming Hearts

there's no one i love more than you
your curly hair
your smile and eyelashes , all true
brown skin like my favorite spice
cinnamon and a warmth so nice
eyes so deep and dark
and your love so strong
leaves my heart with a mark
it beats
and beats
and will continue to beat strong
us together feels nothing wrong
just right
light as the full moon at night
as the owls hoot far from sight
forever we should sleep and dream
waking up on every sunrise
and the more our love will beam
meant for one another we shall realize


-e

Day Break

Sunday morning as I looked at the back of her head, I had many thoughts. Here they are:



I am always happiest when we rest
I can't see how sleepy you are
I see your shoulders move with every breath
I can still see how beautiful you are

Black: the color of night
The color a bandit cloaks himself in to do evil
Black: the color of your beautiful eyes
Your beautiful hair

Lying next to me with your lips still
I know I shouldn't kiss you but I will

I give you kisses so you know I will be back to bed soon
I come back and give you more so you don't mind me rocking the bed

I wrap my arms around you while you lay
And I dream about your black hair turning a beautiful grey
How mine would be white then too
How I will always be happy sleeping next to you

Ghosts in Shells and The Always live

My love and his friends, Evan and Daniel got the opportunity to perform their music this past Friday at the Dolores Park cafe. They are an awesome hip hop band by the name Ghost in Shells, something you definitely should check out because they are that good ;) Friday night was a success for them. They pulled off an awesome show and people were really into it. Lots of friends and coworkers came to support them especially their biggest fan of all, me :D I had so much fun watching them perform and am so proud of Fernando for doing what he is passionate about and I am there for him to support him because he truly is talented and I admire him for what he does. So love, I am here along the way with you :) and your music is beautiful. Also Ghosts in Shells will be releasing a LP soon which I am excited for and can't wait to share along with their Friday night show via Youtube! So excited for them! I have a feeling they are going to make it far and they deserve it. And Fernando, I Love You.

Also here's one of their hit songs called Machines by Ghost In Shells. I guarantee you will like it ;)




Machines by Ghosts In Shells -e

April 19

and the Childish Gambino concert was unbelievable! Such a fun crazy experience to have been there with my love. We both are big major fans and we were so excited when the day finally arrived! We were even there like 4 hours early and made it to be on the very front of the stage so Childish Gambino was right there in front of us! The people there were crazy and wild but i survived the crowd without any injuries lol. Also thank you to Fernando for taking me to share this awesome experience. I love you.

-e

Always

My only hope
Is for us to lose what is important
In what is important to only us

I can only dream
Of the moment your respond to my affection
Although reality gives me such pleasure every day

I knew what this is
Before I could understand what this is
When I was young and foolish

Never doubt when I tell you
You are my everything

Your lips are unreal
There is nothing like our embrace; I am wild
My heart cannot sustain your voice

I am always at your side
It is perfection
And in your presence my heart is aflame

Feel my chest corrupted
In the street
Cinderella's time

Sleep
When sun meets us
We will follow again


Never doubt when I tell you
You are my everything


Your lips are unreal
There is nothing like our embrace; I am wild
My heart cannot sustain your voice